Okay! How stinkin cute are these little snow babies? Ya, I made those! In my mind, we were going to find the perfect spot to take a picture, and get an amazing picture with both kids looking and smiling...perfect spot, check! That is about the only thing that went right. Did my picture turn out cute? Yes. Did Kastyn cry the WHOLE time because he moved when I told him not to move and got his hands covered in snow? YES! As Wesley and I stood in snow to our knees, just trying to get him to settle down for ONE STINKIN PICTURE! It is the moments like those that I pray every day to have patients for. As I type I am continually asking him not to touch the keys on my keyboards, and then deleting all of the things he is typing. And I want to bite his little fingers off.
I was raised in a really good home, and taught a lot of great things. But it was also a normal occurrence for someone to loose their temper. I have been blessed with that wonderful, wonderful habit. My anger starts to bubble, and I loose it. Since I have become a Mom, I have become more and more ashamed of this habit. Since becoming a Mom, I have also learned about the amazing blessing of a child's ability to forgive easily.
Everyday, I get upset at Kastyn for one thing or another, and just as I am kicking myself for the way I handled it, he comes up to me asking for a hug and a kiss(He gives THE BEST hugs in the world by the way) and tells me that he loves me.
He has to wear a patch over his right eye for 2-4 hours every day. Some days go smoothly, and other days, he asks when he gets to take it off about every five minutes. He has also figured out just the right way to rub it so that it will "fall off", assuming he will get lucky and not have to put another one on. Well today it "fell off" about twenty minutes after I put it on, after I continually asked him to stop rubbing it so it wouldn't come off. I lost it a little bit and ripped it the rest of the way off. He cried and told me that it hurt, and I told him to stop being a baby as I put on a new patch. When it was FINALLY time to take the second one off(on days like today, it is just as hard for me to keep it on as it is for him) he carefully removed it, and I saw the huge red marks that I had left on the side of his eye from the first patch. He wasn't being a baby, it did hurt. By the looks of it, it really hurt! After looking at it over and over again, I told him that it looked really bad, and that I was really, really sorry for hurting him like that. His response was,"It's okay Mom, it doesn't even hurt anymore."
This kid never ceases to amaze me. No matter what I do, and how terrible I feel about it, he is always so quick to forgive me, and tell me that he loves me. If everyone in the world could Love and understand forgiveness like a child does, there wouldn't be raids, or shootings or protests. I know that the issues surrounding all of these things are much bigger then your mom loosing her temper with you because you didn't listen to her. But the concept of the forgiveness is the same. I hope that one day, people will realize that all of this hate and violence isn't solving anything, and it's only causing more hate and violence. When I grow up I want to be just like Kastyn and spend my days being as loving and forgiving as he is right now!
